Lately

For some reason, it feels like days passes by quickly these days, and before we knew it it's the half of September already. I remember how I always keep on telling myself to be more productive this month and work on the things I really want to do for months but like always I haven't start any of those yet, not even the part where I want to update this blog regularly as I can. 

In my defense, I'm quite occupied the past few weeks with some personal matter that my dad asks me to work on. Then on the other times, I'm trying to handle my anxious thoughts by distracting myself whether to binge-watch a series on Netflix or create a socmed tweetfic on twitter just anything to stop myself from having anxious thoughts every single day. It is hard, but I have to do so. 

These days I am trying to find something to look forward, something to motivate me working hard again. Now I have few things on my what-should-I-do list but I still don't know when or how can I start doing those stuff, and even if I want to start working into it I'm still having a hard time to focus. To be honest, this is one of the few things I dislike about myself. I hate how I love planning everything I want to work on but then I procrastinate on the day I want to start doing it. Just like how I plot the story I want to finish before the Christmas season but I haven't start anything yet, or how I make a weekly schedule but I didn't follow any of it. Sounds stupid right? Procrastination is one of my life long enemies next to my anxiety, two of the worst combination ever and sadly they're always with me. 

Just wish that one day everything will change through little steps I can overcome these two top problems I have these days so that I can start on the things I want to work on. And maybe to have a peaceful life as well.